Breaking Point - sort of OT

[SimplyMe]

Hey, guys. I guess I just need to whine (again). I seem to be doing alot of that lately. [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]


Anyhow, I'm just so stressed right now and feel like there's so much to do that I do nothing cuz I don't know where to even begin. Know what I mean?


Here's the main thing. Now my psych teacher says you always have a choice, even if neither appeal to you. His example is "chicken salad or chicken s**t" lol and I agree. So I'm not saying I don't have a choice, I'm havign trouble choosing. I feel like both are chicken s**t lol.


I'm taking 5 classes this semester, one is online. I thought it would be OK since 3 of my classes are psych related and taught by the same one I had last semester and I LOVE him! The 4th I had the same teacher last semester and that was OK too, she's cool and I like the way she tests. The problem one, the one I'd hoped would be the easiest is the online one. The physical science which I have ranted about on here. I feel like I'm behind in it and when I try to catch up in that I fall behind in at least one other class. Anyhow, so yes this is stress, obviously!


The problem more so than the stress is anxiety and emet. I've had more panic attacks or close to panics lately than I've had in quite some time and it bothers me. I'm pretty sure it's from the stress. So then the emet kicks in as well, or maybe that kicks in first. I don't know. But like last night I was just awful. I felt sick for half the day, got anxious but not panic attack last night and FINALLY was able ot eat but I don't want ot live like this!


So here's the tricky part. If I take 2 classes over the summer I graduate from the CC and can go to the University and really start to finish. So, dropping any of these other classes I have now IF I want to finish as scheduled isn't possible. The science would be harder over the summer. The psychs aren't offered over the summer. The other one is but is w/ another teacher who is said to be harder (it's spanish 2 and sicne I had the one I have now for 1 I don't know if I'd be behind w/ the other teacher).


I COULD drop the online one, take only one over the summer and next fall do a different science (the one I wanted but that is only available in the fall) and the other one I was gonna take over the summer w/ my psych teacher I like. Problem is I want to graduate NOW lol. I knwo it's only 1 semester difference but it's a year from now that I'd be done.


I just GRRRRR!!!!!! Please, tell me what you think, what you'd do, any advice. Have any of you been in this situation? It seems so trivial I know but I am going to be 28 in June and I want a career, I want to start my life. I know it's my fault for not doing it younger but there was no way I could've gone to college w/ the way my anxiety and emet were back then.


Thanks in advance guys.


Oh and I don't wnt to make any major decisions until this w/e because I did get my period Monday and I know from past experience not to make decisions this time of month lol. Edited by: SimplyMe

[harmonygirl72]

Hey!


Ihad no idea you were going through such a rough time! You know I am a call, e-mail, IM, or PM away!! I hope things start getting better soon!


Mary

[SimplyMe]

Thanks, Mary! [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[falon_17]

Simply, I feel the same way you do. I have been in college for 4 years now and was set to get an Associate's degree in 3 months. Now I have just recently made a decision to go to Pharmacy school instead. That means I have to spend ANOTHER year at this CC before I can apply, then its another THREE YEARS before I'm done. I will have been in school long enough to become a doctor. Not to mention, I should have had a Bachelor's degree by now!!! I've just taken so long to figure out what I want to do...I kept changing my mind so I'd have to change my major too, then get more classes in to fulfill that, only to change my mind again...I know how frustrating it is. I would give anything to be able to be done with college sooner, and get my son and me out of my parents' house quicker...but it won't happen. I suggest dropping the class and taking a different science. I know it sucks to not be able to graduate when you want to, but look at it this way: if you push yourself too hard with this overload of classes, your grades may suffer. If you put some classes off until you can better handle them, you will graduate later but with better grades and a better GPA, which is better for getting jobs. This is probably not what you want to hear, but that's my advice from someone in the same boat. Hope I helped.

[SimplyMe]

Thanks Falon! I'm sorry you're in a similar positions. Blah. I actually did withdraw from the online class today. Somthing like physical science for me anyhow needs actual instruction and it was just too much.


It is disappointing, mostly in myself but like you said I'd rather have my GPA in good standing and not let other classes suffer too even if it means an extra semester. Plus in the grand scheme one semester isn't the end of the world or even that long.


Thanks again and good luck to yout oo w/ school! It will all be worth it! [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[falon_17]

Simply, I had to do the same thing with an online math course. For me, I can absolutely do science online, but not math. Now that's one of the courses I'll be taking in the next year for Pharm school. Damn that calculus, I thought I could graduate without it. Oh well. Glad I helped, and good luck to you too!

[liz28]

i am 23 and currently in the same situation.
however im planning on dropping a few of the courses that are particularly
stressing me out to the point of insaneness and d*...
really .. slow down..
a career is something to strive for
but not if you're going to exert your stress levels to such high amounts..
not worth it then...
but maybe you are stronger than i!

[imroo2]

Hi SimplyMe,


I'm 20 and was going threw a similiar issue. I am a junior being my third year in college. I was thinking of graduating spring 2007. In order to graduate within that four year limit I would have to have a full schedule and bust my butt. Take 5 classes each semester plus like 2-3 summer school classes. That was completely stressing me out. Im used to only taking 4 classes each semester and im classified as a full time student so it worked for me. Sorry to ramble but this semester i decided to just relax and graduate fall 2007. Luckily Im able to get insurance and i still live with my mom. A teacher opened my eyes and made me realize what really was the reason I was in a rush to get out of school. When i start my career ill just want to be right back in school because its a lot easier and fewer responsibilites. I know im younger but hopefully that might help. Good Luck and Wish the best for you.


Imroo2

[tayda]

Hi SImply,


my last semester wasa bust due to the PA's and constant anxiety. I have a really heavy course load this semster (hence why I haven't been on as much). But my advice to you would be" DO WHATEVER YOU THINK YOU ARE CAPABLE OF.
<UL>
<LI>a.) If you fail courses this semester, then it affects your GPA and you're gonna feel guilty.</LI>
<LI>b.) Maybe you only drop one class... take it over the summer.. (see if another cc offers it.. and if it will transfer)</LI>
<LI>Go the extra semester... and if you are only taking one class... see if the college you plan on transfering to will accept any other courses that your current cc offers.. and take some extra courses.</LI>[/list]


I went to a CC before I went to a University. So I double checked the courses that would transfer.. and ended up going an extra semester. I DID MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER.. and it wasn't the end of the world.


But do what you wil be happy w/ and most successful at.

[SimplyMe]

Thanks so much for your support guys! I did get a card for someone tot alk to at the university and see if I can't take this one class at my CC and begin classes at the University this fall. I'm much more relaxed now that I've withdrawn from the class. I was a bit upset but not having to worry about this stupid class is great! Plus I got a 96 on a test in one of my psych classes WHOO! lol


Thanks again, you guys are the best!

[tabycat]

I'm glad you're dealing better. I tend to have little sympathy for most college students. I have so many classes it's not even funny and it's still going to take me 5 years to graduate, but I'm coming to terms with that. That's what I get for being in music ed. I love it, it's just stressful a lot of the time. I'm in class 23 hours a week and am only getting 13 hours credit...I have 9 classes and it's the least I've had the two years I've been in college. I just love stressing myself out right, not really but I don't have much of a choice. The nice thing is me and my boyfriend will now graduate at the same time...

[HDogg]

I know how rough it is to be graduating college "late" because of anxiety issues. I missed a whole year of college b/c of it. I would have graduated by now. My dad was paying for my schooling, but in my senior year (which was when I should have already graduated), he got his brain tumor and had a ton of medical bills. He couldn't afford my college anymore, and I couldn't get a loan b/c my credit was so bad. So I had no choice but to drop out. I am still waiting to go back someday, but I know I'll be one of those 40 somethings in school before I can. And I'm okay with that now.


But if you have the chance to graduate, do it! Don't hold back. If it takes a semester longer than you anticipated, so be it.Maybe you can apply for an internship and take your last class. Then you'll be getting paid big bucks and going to school. That would be fun. I hope things get better for you though. I'm rooting for you!

[wing]

Ooo..I am not in college so I dont have much advice, sorry,but I know I'm stressed about school too. *have too many classes and too much homework, so little time* ^^;;


I hope everything gets better for you though!

[SimplyMe]

OMG tabycat we aren't even allowed tot ake more than 5 classes! I can't imagine! Blah!


Thanks Heather. I think if it'd been a different subject I'd be OK but I"m just NOT a science person, it doesn't make sense to me and I'm jealous of those who get it right off. You will end up back in college! Can you get a grant? I know my aunt has to do loans cuz she is married and there is "too much" money LOL! Riiight. Anyhow you'll do it!


Wing, thanks for the support. Up to this point I've loved college and now that I dropped this class I feel better about it. Just went the long way about it lol.[img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]

[tabycat]

yeah I know people always freak out, I'm stressing over the two tests I have tomorrow, I made an executive decision and decided I wasn't graduating in 4 years, but I'm ok with that now. I'm sorry you're stressing. and I totally understand

[wing]

Hehe, I think I may have to drop a class now (if its possible^^)since I'm having so many friend problems and I can't concentrate, but I'm glad that everything's easier for you now =] Decisions are hard. I hate making some lol. Edited by: wing