i apologize for this rant

[asagao]

I am seriously envious ofeveryone on here who has acompanion (husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, fiancee)that is supportive of them. Unlike many of the women in here I can't just lean into someone's arms when I'm in a state of panic. Apparently, I'm the one who has to offer the support not vice versa. To the guys who found someone, I really wish you the best with your significant other, but I cannot help but feel envious of the support you receive. People are cruel and malicious in my area (both men and women). I live in the coal region where unemployment is high and crime is on the rise.It's hard to find any support here. It's even more difficult entering some sort of relationship. Some people have all the luck.

[princessmel]

A lot of people do have wives and husbands and what not for support, but we can only help ourselves. They can't do anything about it. To be honest, I do have a husband, but don't get that much support or should I say advice on this. I know I have to help myself. The only people who I really get support from are my friends and my mom. Thank goodness for her. Do you have family and friends you can lean on? Being in a relationship with someone isn't going to solve that much. Ok. My husband's here and is getting mad. He said that that's not true. He says he tries to support me with it, but he doesn't understand it or know what to do to provide it.

[californiagirl]

Hello~~


I agree with PRINCESSMEL in that we have to help ourselves, but it is nice to have someone to talk to and turn to when you need their support. I am married, but am having problems right now! He is not very supportive, so I basically have to deal with this myself anyways. It's hard, and all I can say is that somethimes professional help is the way to go. I will be seeking that myself soon.

[princessmel]

I just started seeking professional help in October. I feel so much better when I'm done talking to her. I feel normal. The first couple of meetings were about personal problems with hubby though. If you really really think about it though. No one can help you. You need to help yourself. Support and people to talk to including a therapist is the way to go. I got to the point with all of our marriage problems and the anxiety on top of it that I had to go talk to someone before I had a nervous breakdown. I'm getting better though. We are strong and will get through this.

[princessmel]

I didn't mean feeling normal in a bad way. We are all normal on this site. We just have a problem to overcome. I meant normal as in she understood me. I didn't want to offend anyone

[californiagirl]

If you really really think about it though. No one can help you. You need to help yourself. Support and people to talk to including a therapist is the way to go.

That is true, but Dr's can open your eyes to new ways to handle stuff and see things more clearly. I have no clue how to help myself right now, I'm always on the verge of tears, I am so sad, and feel that I may have a break down if I don't seek help. I think it will be comforting. The people on this site help immensely as well[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[princessmel]

People on this site do help a whole lot. I totally agree with you. I've been through so much crap with this thing. I've decided to be strong, positive, and happy. I've decided to live life to it's fullest and just say screw it to this stupid thing b/c it's not worth it. You will feel better. I used to cry a lot b/c I wanted it to go away. I just stopped feeling sorry for myself and started to be strong and positive in every aspect of my life. Not saying that u are feeling sorry for yourself. It will get better. **hugs**

[asagao]

I really apologize if this came across as hurtful. Sometimes I think others just have all the luck, but after reading these replies I realize i'm the initial schmuck. I never thought about complications in marriages or anything else, so I apologize for my self-righteousness. As far as comfort goes, I don't have many people I can talk to in my area. A few people are understanding and will listen but obviously cannot relate to any of it because they're not dealing with it. There are no actual support groups for this in my area because it largely goes unheard of. I had to even explain it to a doctor because he wasn't even familiar with the word emetophobia. I feel ashamed for the most part, and it doesn't help when people criticize you left and right. That is why I joined this forum. I am trying to find some stability with the issue. I feel so angry lately, and I'm not sure if that's an outward sign of depression or something else. Maybe over time it will be mollified the more I learn about others on here. When you feel like you've been abandoned your entire life you tend to be more hostile, and I'm really sorry if I come across as an obnoxious and unruly individual. On top of this my best friend is nearing Stage IV Cancer, and I just have a lot of things on my chest. I am really sorry for my baseless accusations. I'll try to be more understanding at times. I'm just not doing well right now.