Feel like I’m going crazy

[angel13]

Hi there guys...sorry for creating yet another "I can't deal with this!" topic, but I've just had a bad day! You folks are the only ones who understand.


I'd been going so well...going out with friends, seeing films, etc. Now all of a sudden I've just plummeted again, and over something so stupid! (for the record...me and some friends ordered pizza last night...I got weird about reheating it, because it had chicken on it). God, I wish I wasn't like this!!


I hate getting so upset and crying over stupid phobia, like I am (can hardly see the bloody keyboard as I type!)... it's so silly. But it just makes me so mad that just when I think I have control of this whole thing, something so small can make me topple. I just feel like I'm losing my mind...I'm 18, I should be out there enjoying my life, and I usually can for the most part, but every so often I'll fall back down again, and it's just upsetting.


Again, sorry about the little rant...I'm just having one of those nights where I'm so totally fed up =( I lose my appetite and feel sick when I'm down like this, and as you can imagine, that only makes things worse! lol. Any words of wisdom? Or even just a hug will do, I feel so alone at the moment.

[princessmel]

I'm sorry u are not doing so well at the moment. Think of it this way though. You have been doing things. Going out with friends and seeing movies and what not. The thing about this phobia though is that somedays everything just seems fine and then boom like u said u topple or get in a rut over something small. That always happens to me. Not so much these days, but when I was your age. Don't let it get you down. Turn it into something positive and just think to yourself that you are not going to let this phobia bring you down. Remember that you are strong and you will get yourself out of this rut or whatever we call them. I know exactly what you are going through. The best thing to do is to MAKE yourself be happy and think positive. I hope this helps. I've been dealing with this for so long, but I feel I've come a long way just by pushing myself each day. Take one day at a time. **Hugs** to you. You will be fine. No cries, ok?? Smile [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[angel13]

Thanks so much, princessmel, that really does help! You're right, we all have these days when things seem impossible, but we do get over them.


Its awful when you feel like it's beating you. You feel so helpless, like it's the beginning of a downward spiral, but things always get better, if you've got the will to stand up and be strong against it.


Thanks again [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]*hugs* I've kinda calmed down a bit now! I just had an awful day, and had no one around to talk to.

[princessmel]

I'm glad you are feeling better. I used to get those bouts of crying too. I think i was around your age. I'm 30 now. You just get so frustrated with the phobia, especially, when everything was going so well and then all of a sudden you get in a rut or something so small just sets it off. It definitely is a helpless feeling and it sucks, but you know what? You are strong and can stand up against it. Just keep fighting and pushing and don't let it bring you down. Think of positive and happy thoughts. My mom always used to tell me that when I was younger. I hope you have a great day!![img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[angel13]

Aw, I really can't thank you enough! ^__^ You're right, it's so annoying when the tears start flowing. But if you've got someone to talk to, everything can feel so much better. I guess bottling it up wouldn't have helped me tonight...I'd probably still be in tears if I hadn't come here! Times like these I just appreciate this site so much. Its so nice to know it's always here, if you're ever having a rough time.


Hopefully when I make it to 30 I'll be as good at handling these emet pitfalls as you, Mel! Thanks so much for the advice, I really appreciate it =)