A theory about me - any thoughts?

[x hannah x]

Well the other day I was in Maths and I was daydreaming away, as I tend to do in Maths, and I was thinking about that Pink video Amber was talking about and how it took me about 10 minutes to actually work up the courage to watch it, and I was trying to think what it was that freaked me outabout seeing v* on tvwhen I knew nothing would happen if I did, since I know theres no way I can catch anything and I'm not anywhere near it. But then I was thinking that my main thought when someone else v*s is that I need to get away andonce I'm out of the situation I very rarely worry about catching anything, so what is it exactly that scares me? I'm not even really scared about v*ing myself, in that its not constantly on my mind and it doesn't really stop me eating what I want, but when I am feeling sick I would do anything to keep from v*ing, and although I avoid anyone who has a bug thats going round I don't get as worried about catching it as I do about seeing it happen. So I kept thinking what do I think will happen if I watch a v* scene?
So what I got out of all those random thought processes is that maybe I'm sort of fooling myself about the "I'm scared of others v*ing but not myself thing" I'm not saying this goes for everyone, but like I said, although I tendnot to worryon an every day basis that I might v*, but there are certain things I do, like avoiding eating or touching things that ill people have been around, and freaking out at buffets. And the fact that when I think I'm going to v* I go into full panic attack mode. And I think that partly what I'm scared of when I watch v* scenes is that I will v* myself. It's been a while since I last v*ed and when I did there was a time afterwards where v* on tv didn't bother me. So do you think I could help myself by not fighting so much when I need to v*?Any first hand experience would be great.

[x hannah x]

P.S Oooh 4 stars, when did that happen?

[crimgoddess]

Hannah- I think Iam similar to you. Although my main fearis others vomitting, I don't feel that it interferes with my day-to-day life, unless I am in a situation where I am likely to come in contact with someone who will vomit. If I'm around someone who feels sick, I'm not all that concerned about catching anything- or even being around them, as long as I know that I will not have to see them vomit.


but, i know that for me the main concern isn't being sick myself- I used to fear it, to the point where I would pace and pretty much do anything to prevent it from happening. Now, I pretty much give in and let it happen if the nausea is persistent, because in all honesty it feels SO much better to give in than feeling like hell for an entire day, and worrying about it. If those few minutes of unpleasantness mean I feel better enough to sleep, or even try to eat something, I'll let it happen because that nauseous not-knowing-if-its-going-to-happen feeling is a lot worse.


Allowing myself to give in didnt lessen my fear of others vomitting- but that's not saying that it wont for you. But I do know that since I have started to let myself vomit when it seemed inevitable, it makes being sick, or feeling nauseous so much LESS STRESSFUL that I wouldn't go back. Whereas before not feeling well would put me into a panic, which only makes the situation worse- now I know that I can deal with it, and it's not the worst thing that can happen.


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