Hello everybody....I'm Alie. I'm 21 years old and I've been dealing with emet since I was 10. YAAAY. hah, just kiddin'.
Let's see here. It all started when I was a child. I was such a disgusting eater, always eating chips and junk food galore. Heck, my family even called me the "chip queen" or the "junkfood queen". My daily diet was seriously 2-3 bags of those little lunch chip bags, fruit roll-ups, soda, milk, ceriel, and my mom's home cooked dinner. Yuck, I know.
Well, when I was in 4th grade, I was getting sick a lot. It'd always happen where I'd wake up at around 10pm to 2pm in the middle of the night, with a stomach ache and having the feeling like I was going to be sick. I'd hate being sick...but I wasn't as worried about it as a child and I kept eating. But then when I would spend the night at my friend's houses, right before I'd leave I'd get this bad feeling in my stomach. It wasn't a stomach ache, it'd just felt as gross and a little heavy. I would lay down for a little bit, still feel bad but once I got over it and got in the car to leave....it went away.
That same year it started getting worse and worse...still getting sick a lot. Still eating bad.
6th grade comes and I change my diet. I started eating things daily as if I were already sick like popcycles, toast, crackers, 7-up, apple sauce, jello, etc. It helped a little, but one night, Iate a bowl of chips. Later that night at 11pm, I woke up with a horrible stomach ache. And what happened? I threw up.
It's been 9 years since I've last thrown up. I'm happy about that, but at the same time I am a wreck. I might as well have thrown up at least 265 times out of 365 days a year. Let me explain why...
Over the past9 years, I have changed my diet constantly. I rarely ever eat chips, and if I do, it's very very little. Like a handful. I am always watching what I eat. I love food to pieces so I try to eat healthy like fruits, vegetables, chicken, smoothies, turkey bacon, hard boiled eggs (ya need the protein!), falafel burgers from my work, etc. And I like to treat myself once a day with something like a little ice cream, or fruit pies, but nothing big and small quantities of it. See it looks like I would be fine, but I'm not.
No matter HOW healthy I eat, I feel like I've already thrown up at least 1-3 times a week. A WEEK. My body works like clockwork. It is immuned to it I believe. I can feel when I start to feel like crap. My stomach feels light, my throat feels like it's closing in, and I burp a lot and sometimes when I do burp, I get a little acid feeling. My stomach sometimes feels an acid feeling. I've gone to the doctors about two years ago and took tests. It's not reflux, not an ulcer, not anything like that. I came out fine. I was even feeling like crap when I took the tests. I was so nervous too because I fear of getting sick in front of people, and I really really REALLY fear the pain. I had to drink some stuff that felt like soda, and when it went to my stomach, it made me want to burp and they were telling me "don't burp! this is part of the test", and I was nervous I was going to be sick.
I honestly wonder if people have the EXACT same feeling as me. I don't have stomach aches...I feel like I've been sick already and that I could again. But I don't. It used to be when I was a child that it would last two days, and then one day I was fine. Next day it would happen again and last two days, next day I'm fine. And that went on for a couple years until high school when I started to find ways on how to not feel so much anxiety on it. I used to have it so bad, especially one summer in 2002. I felt so sick and horrible that I couldn't move much, and it lasted for two weeks and I literally couldn't eat anything. I have good days and bad days, and some really really bad days. It affects my life to the point where I don't even go to school, I take online classes. I traveled up to the Redw
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