Why do I do this!?

[marby]

My six year old son starting v* in the middle of the night last night. Fortunately, v* or illness doesn't bother my husband at all - so he got up to handle it. But - I wouldn't let him back in our bedroom after he had contact with our son. This morning I got ready for work, packed a suitcase and told my husband I need to stay at a hotel for a couple of days. I hate myself for not being stong enough to deal with this! What does my son think about a mother who hides any time he's sick?I don't want this horrible phobia to rub off on my son. I want him to be normal and not have to deal with all the crap that comes with this, but I'm afraid my reactions will either make him love me less or make him as weird as I am about v*. I know alot of you have children. How do you make yourself stay and deal with the situation? My 'fright or flight' feelings are so strong - I just feel like I'm going to die if I don't leave. Thank God my husband knows about the emet (doesn't really understand - but trys to be supportive) and is willing to take the lead when something happens. But I don't want my son to feel like I don't love him as much as his dad because I leave every time he v*!


Aghhhh!!!! I HATE this thing!


Marby

[curly wurly]

Poor you Marby!


I know just how you feel. Unfortunately my husband works away for 12-16 weeks at a time so I have to stay as much as I would love to run. I am sure your son does not think badly of you or love you any less. I was worried that my daughter who is almost 6 was getting the phobia, but after much talking with her, she is fine and definately not afraid of v*. My daughter is starting to understand that I am not very good with V*, the same way as she is afraid of cats. The last time my daughter was ill she was very good and made it to the bathroom every time.


I always feel like a really bad mum when I can not cope with my children when they v*, but i am sure they do not think any the less of us for it and we are not bad parents, just parents suffering from this horrible phobia. Your husband sounds very supportive and your son is not missing out as your husband is caring for him.


Try not to feel too bad. This will soon be over and your sonwill know you love him. I hope your son is feeling better soon.

[marby]

Thanks Curly -


When I read back my post I sound like such a selfish b* for leaving. It sounds like you and your daughter have a mutual understanding of what's going on with your emet. I hope someday it can be that way with my son. I love him more than anyone/anything in the world and I don't want him to ever think that I don't because I take offwhenever he's sick. I don't feel like a bad mother until something like this happens, then I feel like a failure as a parent.


Thanks again for your words...