well, i haven't been diagnosed with Emet, but i believe i have it.
i was jammin with a couple of friends yesterday, when suddendly i felt a
discomfort in my stomach, i felt my stomach swell up where i can actually
see it petruding out. immediatly after that i felt dizzy, my hands and feet
felt a little numb and my mouth got really dry. i told my friend to take
me home. from there it got worse, the numbing senstation had crawled
up to my arms and legs, i would get very violent shakes, and i had
horrible cotton mouth. i could barely breath. whenever i would feel i was
gonna V* i got worse. i told my friend to take me to the hospital instead.
there they immediatly checked me out and told me i was having an
anxiety attack. again.
i say "again" because this is my third or fourth time i have gone to the
hospital in the past 3 years. and the diagnosis is the same. a panic
attack. and it always deals with me not wanting to V*. and i'm not
counting the many times i got an attack and did not go to the hospital.
it really has messed me up mentally, i was feeling so great lately. i'm in
bed today and i haven't eaten anything. i'm scared that i'm gonna get sick
and bring on another panic attack.
i don't know what brings them on, but there are a couple of things i feel
before i get an attack.
1. constipated
2. nausia
3. tired
4. pressure in my stomach
everytime i feel like that i get an attack.
i have been dealing with this for the past 3 years, but i've been afraid of
V* forever it seems.
i'm not sure why i'm typing this, i just feel really alone. my family thinks
i'm crazy. they almost didn't go to the hospital.
maybe i'm looking for answers. if there are any.
thanks.