My daughter had a seizure

[peachykeen]

I'm starting therapy tomorrow for my emet. Although the experience
I had with my daughter two nights ago has really helped me put
things into perspective. Here's a cut and paste:


I REALLY need to see her for
anxiety now, for even more than my emet. On Sunday night my 10
month old had a Grand Mal Seizure for no reason - no fever, no head
trauma, nothing. It was horrible, she quit breathing and turned blue,
and we went to the hospital via ambulance. She had a head CT scan
and has to have an EEG and an MRI to check for brain tumors and
epilepsy. Emet has been far from my mind, and when I was sitting in
the ER I was praying, and telling God that He could make me v*
every week for the rest of my life if He would let her be OK. He held
up his end of the bargain (so far, she's home and ok), and if He
wants to hold me to it I'm ok with it. But I've been having huge
panic attacks, last night I thought I was having a heart attack it was
so bad. I'm hoping I can get some sort of anxiety meds to get me
through this - I haven't slept since Saturday night and I'm an
absolute mess. I was holding her when she seized, and every time I
look at her I can see the look on her face, her eyes, my fear. I'm
hoping tomorrow goes well - anything will be an improvement from
how horrible I'm feeling now.


So I hope tomorrow goes well. But I wanted to share my thoughts,
and let you all know that as horrible as this phobia is (and I've got it
bad) things could always be worse.

[sillygirl]

It's amazing how things like that put our fears in perspective. I am so glad she is okay now, and I will be thinking and praying for you both tomorrow.

[crimgoddess]

Wow- I'm sorry you and your daughter had to go through that! It's especially bad when they are so young, because it's not like she could vocalize how she was feeling, or really be able to comprehend what is happening.


Did the results of her tests point to anything that may have caused her seizure, or was it one of those freak things that sometimes happen to children? I seriously hope it is the latter, and that she is fine from here on in.


Goodluck on your therapy tomorrow- and you are absolutely right when you say things could be so much worse. I will definitely think of this the next time I am wigging out over something emet-related.


*amber*

[tink]

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry you had to go through that. I was at his house when my brother had a grand mal seizure and it is such a scary experience. It sounds like you handled it very well, and you made a very brave bargain. Good for you. Shows that you will do anything for your family.

I hope your tharapy goes well, and that you find comfort quickly. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Take Care,
--Kim

[suze]

s***, that sounds awful, you must have been terrified. Glad she's better, these things can happen to babies, for no known reason. I do hope this is a one off.


I'm not suprised you're having panic attacks, you have been through a terrifying experience as a mother. Try not think back to it though. concentrate on the fact that your daughter's back with you. The memory will fade with time. Perhaps you could get something to help you relax in the short term.


Thinking of you. Take care.

[curly wurly]

Sorry to hear about your daughter. I am really glad she is o.k. now. You and your daughter will be in my prayers. I think you have been very brave.


I hope your therapy goes well. Good luck.

[tcsarah]

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through with your daughter, it must have been so scary. It sounds like you have been so strong for her and have coped as well as anybody could, I would say the anxiety you are feeling now is only normal considering the shock you have been through and all the worries you must have. You and your familyare in my thoughts. I hope things go well with your therapy. Take care.


Tracey

[donna1216]

oh my, how totally scary!!! I am so glad that you are both okay!! I remember almost 2 years ago, my middle one was 2 and she stopped breathing on her sleep, and the next morning, I felt as though I was going to v* from the stress of it, and I DIDN'T CARE--the concern for your child is stronger!! I am sure God isn't going to hold you to the bargain--He doesn't work that way, he just answers prayers.[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img] Praise Him and thank Him and that's all he needs!!

[kellybean]

Oh my, I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter. I'm so glad that she is ok.

[purpleteacher]

Epilepsy is something I have grown up with knowing quite a bit about - as I have had family members and very close friends with the illness. It is very scary and life threatening at times. It can put irrational fears into perspective, but it doesn't make our fears any less real or intense once the "rational fear" is over and done with.

[madisonsmom]

Peachykeen,


I have been through the same thing with my 7yr old. Last January he had a seizure for no reason. He just fell to the floor and starting seizing. It lasted maybe 30 seconds. I called his pediatrician and she said to go to the ER. So we did. They did a CT scan and it came back ok. He was then referred to a pediatric neurologist where he had an EEG done. That was normal. He had an MRI with contrast and that was normal. SO...what caused it. The pediatrician said that it could have been a fluky thing. He wasnt put on any medication because it was his first one. Well, exactly 3 months later he had another one. It lasted about 30 seconds. Well, he was put on medication then, a med called Trileptal. He hasnt had anymore since. He is so scared he will have another one. He is scared to be by himself now.


I was a nervous wreck. I cried for days. I just kept asking "why?" It was all I could think about. It is really hard to take. I couldnt get the image of him having a seizure out of my head. It was like I was going through a greiving process. It is so hard to accept. I still look at him and wonder if he will outgrow it. I hope so. And I hope everything is ok with your daughter!


If you need anyone to talk to please IM me or PM me.Edited by: madisonsmom

[kmjundt]

I'm terribly sorry about your daughter!! What a scary thing to go through, I can't even imagine!! I hope everything turns out O.K. for your family. You will be in my prayers!!

[pianolover]

Dear peachykeen,


You prayed to God and He answered; why not pray to Him as well to help you with your panic attacks and your emet? Though therapy etc. is important, so is trusting God with your burdens. He can and will help you so much if you trust it all to Him!


Keep us updated, I'm very sorry you have to go through this with your daughter!!

[lizzo]

Oh my god, i'm so sorry that happened. It's good that you and your
daughter got through it. That's so scary, best of luck to you and your
family.

[tayda]

OMG how terrible.. and scarey too... my sister has epilepsy.. and has been on tegritol (spelling) for YEARS!! The good news is that she's only had one since she began taking medication!


I really hope this is one of those fluke things... but I just wanted to try to reassure you that even if it's not.. your child can still lead a normal life w/ meds. They are very scarey to witness... it's funny how things like this make us realize how mimimal v*ing is.. and that we would do it everyday to see our children be alright.


Goodluck

[angel13]

What a horrible experience for you and your family! I don't know much about seizures, but they sound very traumatic, for both the person who's experiencing it and whoever is around them. I really hope your daughter is alright.


I think some anxiety meds would be a great help at a time like this, even if you don't normally take them - at least they'll take some stress away and help you think more rationally about everything.


Hang in there peachy [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]Let us know what happens. I'll be thinking of you both.