Feeling Like Giving Up.

[violet]

Well at the moment Im feeling really pretty down,depressed and well a bit like giving up on things.


havent felt this low in a long while due to this emet,seems to be effecting far to much of my life, my relationship with my gf and also with my mother.


seems like no matter how much my gf tries to understand still isnt helping,I mean I love her so much id do anything for her,but,just seems like my life is falling apart little by little at the moment.


I dont want to seem like im whining to everyone because Im sorry if I am as I know you all have your own problems as well.


Im just well feeling rather rubbish....


xVx

[kateri27]

I get that way too. I hate it. I just can't stand the fact that I have emet and would do anything to get rid of it. no one understands. my husband thinks I am just wacko and tells me I am totally irrational. I know I am but I can't stop the craziness in my head. I just have to get the strength to get help.

[purpleteacher]

Right now I am feeling similar. I am freaking out about tomorrow, as I'm working with 7-8 year olds. I know there are a million stomach bugs going around and I have never taught at the school I'm scheduled for tomorrow. I love kids and I have a passion for teaching, but my insides are jumping around tonight because I'm scared someone will get sick tomorrow.


I deserve better than to have my life be ruled by this emet. We all deserve better! I've been on edge so much lately that I'm exhausting myself. I can't wait until this SV season has passed...

[pianolover]

Dearest Violet, please don't give up! You are so strong, I know you are. Maybe you don't feel like it, but the strength is there and it will be there when and as you need it.


Email me or something if you need to! I am going to bed now, but please, don't give up! Pray for joy!!!


Hugs to you

[suze]

Hey Violet, you helped me out early this morning, I'm sorry you were feeling so low. Look, this emet thing is horrible, but take it from me, even though it's always there, you do learn to live with it. You are still young, and the enormity of dealing with this for the first time as an adult, living an independent life, can be completely overwhelming. What you're feeling is completely normal, but you need to find ways to cope with it on a daily basis. Try as hard as you can to keep yourself busy - my doctor always tells me to "Do, Not Think", so I try and distract myselffrom this fear. Obviously if you're feeling particularly anxious then this is not easy but if it's an OK day, just keep busy so you don't think about it too much.


Does your mum know about your emet? Don't worry about things with her, she'll love you no matter what, believe me. I may not understand my kids all the time, but God, I'd give my life for them. And your girlfriend, well she's trying to understand, just keep talking to her, tell her in what situations things get bad for you, how you deal with it etc. Then if you freak a bit, she'll know it's nothing to do with her or how you feel about her. Show her this site too, and your mum if you can - I think to the non-emet it would really help them understand the fear.


Hope you feel good again soon. As I said in my thread this morning when my daughter was ill, you are one of the sweetest people on this site, I'm sure your gf sees these qualities in you, and loves you despite this phobia.


Keep your chin up, ok?

[violet]

Hey Violet, you helped me out early this morning, I'm sorry you were feeling so low. Look, this emet thing is horrible, but take it from me, even though it's always there, you do learn to live with it. You are still young, and the enormity of dealing with this for the first time as an adult, living an independent life, can be completely overwhelming. What you're feeling is completely normal, but you need to find ways to cope with it on a daily basis. Try as hard as you can to keep yourself busy - my doctor always tells me to "Do, Not Think", so I try and distract myselffrom this fear. Obviously if you're feeling particularly anxious then this is not easy but if it's an OK day, just keep busy so you don't think about it too much.


Does your mum know about your emet? Don't worry about things with her, she'll love you no matter what, believe me. I may not understand my kids all the time, but God, I'd give my life for them. And your girlfriend, well she's trying to understand, just keep talking to her, tell her in what situations things get bad for you, how you deal with it etc. Then if you freak a bit, she'll know it's nothing to do with her or how you feel about her. Show her this site too, and your mum if you can - I think to the non-emet it would really help them understand the fear.


Hope you feel good again soon. As I said in my thread this morning when my daughter was ill, you are one of the sweetest people on this site, I'm sure your gf sees these qualities in you, and loves you despite this phobia.


Keep your chin up, ok?

Suze hun,thank you...


I will take up your advise and see whatI can do to keep myself going,its hard as we all know.


I hope you are better now,slept well and comfortable..


Take Care


xVx <3

[violet]

Dearest Violet, please don't give up! You are so strong, I know you are. Maybe you don't feel like it, but the strength is there and it will be there when and as you need it.


Email me or something if you need to! I am going to bed now, but please, don't give up! Pray for joy!!!


Hugs to you

*hugs you*


I hope you are well,also that you had a good sleep.


Im not feeling to much better today but going to try and push myself through it for now.


See how the day goes and what it brings.


Thank you for your support it means alot hun xx


Take Care


xVx

[violet]

Right now I am feeling similar. I am freaking out about tomorrow, as I'm working with 7-8 year olds. I know there are a million stomach bugs going around and I have never taught at the school I'm scheduled for tomorrow. I love kids and I have a passion for teaching, but my insides are jumping around tonight because I'm scared someone will get sick tomorrow.


I deserve better than to have my life be ruled by this emet. We all deserve better! I've been on edge so much lately that I'm exhausting myself. I can't wait until this SV season has passed...

I really hope that today goes well for you and that things work out for you.


Settle in and see how things go,its hard hun I know,but got to remeber that its something you love and want to do so unfortunetly its part of the process of working there.


Take Care


xVx

[violet]

I get that way too. I hate it. I just can't stand the fact that I have emet and would do anything to get rid of it. no one understands. my husband thinks I am just wacko and tells me I am totally irrational. I know I am but I can't stop the craziness in my head. I just have to get the strength to get help.

Alot of people that we are close to dont understand what we are going through and are probably rather intimidated by the way we feel and get "but" its something that they learn to live with because they love you.


I hope that you are feeling well today.


Take Care


xVx

[rasogommato]

I'm totally lucky to have a wife who is totally supportive of my phobia and my panic attacks...all of my previous girlfriends have told me how freeky I am when I get panick attacks during the SV season...most people just dont understand how strong these fears that we have actually are. I know everything will be fine with the teaching though! Just keep your hands clean and a positive attitude!!!

[kate1966]

Hey Violet.....listen...we all feel like giving up sometimes.....and i know how down you must be feeling...believe me...i have been there so many times before too. It sucks that we have to deal with this fear on a daily basis...and you are right...it affects every part of our lives...i know for me..it never leaves my head at all......i think about it constantly...and i get so damn mad and frustrated that i let it take over and lead me around like a dog....we have to be strong...and we have to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I mean, sure i am talking big right now...and i know that at any given moment..i could go downhill...b/c i am just feeling brave right now b/c i had some tests done and i feel like i have accomplished something. Have your gf read this site if she hasnt' already...and maybe she will see how intense this really is.....i hope that you feel better soon and that you know we all are here for you to help comfort you. You are such a sweet person i can tell from your posts and how you talk to people here.....remember to be good to yourself as well...pamper yourself....take care of you and try hard as it is to just relax and take it day by day......best of luck to you sweetie....K

[violet]

Hey Violet.....listen...we all feel like giving up sometimes.....and i know how down you must be feeling...believe me...i have been there so many times before too. It sucks that we have to deal with this fear on a daily basis...and you are right...it affects every part of our lives...i know for me..it never leaves my head at all......i think about it constantly...and i get so damn mad and frustrated that i let it take over and lead me around like a dog....we have to be strong...and we have to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I mean, sure i am talking big right now...and i know that at any given moment..i could go downhill...b/c i am just feeling brave right now b/c i had some tests done and i feel like i have accomplished something. Have your gf read this site if she hasnt' already...and maybe she will see how intense this really is.....i hope that you feel better soon and that you know we all are here for you to help comfort you. You are such a sweet person i can tell from your posts and how you talk to people here.....remember to be good to yourself as well...pamper yourself....take care of you and try hard as it is to just relax and take it day by day......best of luck to you sweetie....K

K,Thankx for your advise,it means alot that there are people out there that make you feel slightly easier with being here help.


Ive just had a shower taken my tablets ratteling as usual,now going to make some lunch.


Think that I just need someone in my life who understands, not just understands as in helps with being my gf or my family ect but you know someone who really understands.


but all part and parcell of our lives and Im not knocking anyone here at all,because all I can see is good people,suze with her intelligent lovely mothering skills, amber,who seems to make everyone laugh which is something we all need ,pianolover who is VERY sweet,Kate now you always seem to pop up with the nicest advise your such a lovely person.


Thank you so much


xVx <3