panicking, please help

[falon_17]

Well this morning my stomach's been a little off. I drank some soda first thing and it made my stomach feel kinda heavy and gassy. About 2 hours later when I got hungry I ate a couple Pop Tarts and almost immediately felt it again. I felt like I was going to have d* so I went to the bathroom but it's wasn't d*. Sorry if this is gross for anybody. But anyway, my mom said last night that her stomach was hurting and she stayed in bed through the evening, and hasn't moved from it since then. She knows about my emet and when I asked her what was wrong a few minutes ago she just said she didn't feel good. I'm pretty sure she doesn't have v*, but she may have d*. If she does then it's not very often.


I'm so worried because today is the first day of the semester and I have to go to class in a couple hours, and I'm terrified that I have to be alone with my son tonight because everyone will be gone or at work. No one will be here with me until around 11 pm, so if I get sick who will take care of him? I don't have anyone to talk to who can distract me from panicking...gosh, as I write this my stomach is feeling crampy. I AM TERRIFIED. I am nervous now but the symptoms started before I was nervous. I am so scared. My heart is racing. Somebody talk to me please!

[tayda]

I don't really know what else to tell you aside from that you will manage... we always seem to... How old is your son?

[falon_17]

I responded to your post about how you are sick...my son is 2 years old. I'm a single mom so being sick is terrifying for me.

[tayda]

My son was v*ing one time when he was aboiut 2, and I'm not going to lie.. it took all of my might not to run away from the house... but mind you... I felt awful!!


He would come running to me right b4 he would v*. The first time he did he was crying, and just v*ed... and of course I ran around like an @$$, sceaming, and crying... i mean i was running away from my own kid.


He NEVER made it to the bathroom, but I didn't get it on me again... I felt sooo terrible about not being able to be there fro him... but I just couldn't deal.. BUT we made it through.. he is rarely ill w/ an SV.. he just gets a lot of coughs and colds....


Despite this weekend, he is usually well... cause I can usually handle anything but v*... but lately I've done a lot better.


I've begun med. therapy along w/ couseling and cognitive... b/c I don't want to be like this forever... if others can conquer their fears.. why can't I?


Mike says that NO ONE likes to v*... and it is gross and can be scarely... but he isn't as fixated on it as I am. Ya know..

[purpleteacher]

Parents just have to deal with it I guess, I don't know. I don't have kids and I know it must be hard to be sick and have to take care of a child too. I know that when I'm teaching and sick, which happens a lot, that I just have to teach and focus on them. I hate having N* in the classroom and knowing I could be sick, butI have to focus on things beside myself and push though. If it reaches a breaking a point, I reach out for help and take care of myself.


Could your mom babysit if you get sick? Do you have any friends from school who could stay with you for a little while and help if you aren't feeling well?

[falon_17]

I live with my mom so she always gets stuck with my son when I'm sick or panicky...I just want to be able to take care of him on my own, you know? When we eventually move out and if I'm not married or whatever, then who will be there to cook for him and watch him if I have a sv? I know mothers who are there for their kids no matter what, like a mother should be. They can have sv, flu, cancer, the worst illness imaginable, and they are still out taking their kids to school and stuff. My main fear is that I won't be able to get over my emet enough to do these things. And what if we had a sv at the same time? How would I take care of him then? Ifeel like I can't be strong enough for my own son...he deserves a mommy who will take care of him no matter what. I feel like I can't be a good mother with this emet.

[falon_17]

BTW - I am not sick. That goofy feeling I had this morning was all anxiety over my mom not feeling well. I've eaten twice since then and no pain, no d*. I hate that my own mind can trickme into feeling that sick.

[tayda]

glad you're feeling alright

[suze]

It's weird, but even when you're ill you seem to be able to cope with the kids, albeit on a basic level. I've had pneumonia twice, a sv (d* only), and some unknown fever things in the last four years, but still managed to care for the kids. It might be a case of sitting in front of the tv all day with them, and feeding them all the bad things you wouldn't usuallygive themon a daily basis, thus requiring a minimum of cooking, but you do get through it. It's weird too, but my usually rowdy kids do tend to settle down when I'm not well - evenat a very young age,peopleseem to possess empathy!!

[kateri27]

een panicking the past few days. I went to my moms with my husband. her two year old had the stomache flu the day before. I blew it off, but then saturday night my mom and sister were queasy, and they both v*ed. I freaked out. My husband didn't know what to do, and my father was so embarrased. I was screaming and needed to go to a hotel because I couldn't stay there, but my husband wouldn't let me. It was the first time he saw me go through my big attack and I think he finds me a bit crazy. for the next 48 hours I was fixated on wether or not I was going to be sick, I wasn't, but I need help. I am currently on zoloft and it isn't working for the emet.