Sometimes I really hate this time of year. ITs not even Christmas Eve/Day yet and Im already starting to panic about it. I feel nauseas like every single day...I cant eat...I cant sleep..I feel so nervous and I cant seem to calm down. I keep thinking about all the stress I am going to face on Christmas. For one thing...I have to travel 20 minutes to my mothers house.....which is ok...I feel comfortable at my moms house...the thing is my B/F wants me to go to his dads house for christmas also. We go thoruhg this every year. And every year it gets worse for me. I dread going over there to his dads house. Ive been with him for 4 years. And I still get nervous around his family. I dread and think and panic about it alll night on Christmas Eve and all day on christmas day that I cant even enjoy christmas and being with my family b.c. I feel so damn sick and nauseas! I really dont want to go! And I try telling him its just too much on my little body to have this amount of stresss where I cant sleep or eat. But we always get in fights....and I always end up getting dragged there...and I feel like im going to V* the whole time. Its a nightmare!


I dont know what to do! What should I do? Why cant I just enjoy my family and christmas without worrying the whole time? I even thought about making myself "slip" on the ice in hopes that I will fall and break something or even get a bad cut....just so I dont have to go there! I know.....it sounds crazy right? Thats how nervous I am about going! And I just cant stop thinking about it and I cant calm down! HELP! PLEASE!Edited by: *mandi*