Just try to think rationally- (I know, pretty funny when considering that most phobias arent rational)
You say you RARELY get sick....and the last time it occured was due to food poisoning. What are the odds that it would happen without notice while in public? Also, if, by some chance, rare as it was, it did happen while in public, what is the worst case scenario? Sure, it may be embarrassing and gross- but no one will condemn you for it. They would most likely be concerned ... (I know- had a few unfortunate incidents in my past).
If your mother had the same fear- it may be less due to heredity, and more due to the fact that you watched how your mom reacted to illness- and got the impression that vomit/vomitting was so horrendous it must be feared. Even though rationally you may know it's not- it's hard to deprogram something that was ingrained at a young age.
I know how you feel about replaying vomit incidents in your head, even though they had happened days/weeks earlier. I do the EXACT same thing - but generally, the impact of the incident fades with time....and the more time that goes by without an incident the less *that* incident is an issue. The last time I was with a friend who was sick, I was nauseous for a week thinking about it!
Have you looked into different counselling options? Maybe talking about it with a professional and workng through it may help. Also, I think that whatever you do, try to keep your son separate from it so that it does not get passed on to him through learning.
Good luck with everything!!!
*amber*
(ps- when I know I am really anxious about something that has the potential to keep me up at night, I try to work as hard as possible during the day so that I know at night I will be so exausted I don't have time to worry)
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