Hi, welcome to the group. I'm so sorry you are suffering so at the moment.
In the past I have suffered terribly with agoraphobia, althoughI was never housebound, but my life was very restricted - I avoided going to some places like the plague and if I had to go would have the most horrible panic attacks and anxiety. The agoraphobia first started off after experiencing my first panic attack at eleven/twelve years old, I'd also seen my mum struggle with the phobia too so a lot of the fear was probably learned from her as I grew up. At first it started off as havinga fear I would faint in public through the panic but then it turned into being terrified of vomiting in public. Things were made worse as when I get anxious my stomach churns so badly and I feel so nauseous. It was a complete nightmare - I'd get so worked up about feeling ill in public I'd actually end up ill with anxiety, and so the vicious circle began.
I suffered particularly badly with panic disorderand depressionduring my twenties (I'm thirty five now) andtried many different forms of therapy and different medications. Then I eventually found an anti-depressant that worked wonders for me, it literally saved my life. I went from having a miserable, restricted existence to having a new lease of life, able to now enjoy doing things and going places that once filled me with absolute dread. What I'm trying to say is never give up hope of one day having normality back in your life again, however bad things may seem. Keep plugging away trying different things that may help, one day you will find something that does - be it a medication or therapy or combination of both. Since you are unable to leave your house right now, organize for a therapist to do home visits.
Do you have an understanding friend or relative that could suport you, it always helps. You do not say what the big change you experienced last year was but maybe addressing this would help a great deal. And remember we are always here to offer a cyber shoulder to cry on and advice and support whenever we can - don't ever feel alone. [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]
Tracey
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