Alone

[tayda]

I've been doing REALLY well with being nervious and anxious lately, HOWEVER, I am going to be alone w/ my son and sister from Wednesday to Monday b/c my family is flying to PA to see my uncle Paul. (He has been very ill, and from what we here is slowly dieing... not to mention his wife died in august suddenly following surgery.) I can't go.. I have school and work... and I feel TERRIBLE about not going... but I can't be around that and s*, and trapped in a car for hours! I can't fly.. I get n* and will be s* I just know it. ANd now I'm scared about becoming sick.. I've been anxious and it is affecting my chest and breathing again. I have learned that going for walks can help stop a panick attack in it's tracks... (it has been a lifesaver), but what if something bad happens when no one is around? (My sister can't drive), what if someone gets s*? There's nowhere for me to go!! I'm freaking out, and I know I shouldn't! I've tried rationalizing this, and the liklihood, but I keep finding myself getting more and more anxious! I'm scared that I'm going to bring anxiety attacks on myself. I can't take xanax or adivan... last time I got adivan it raised my liver numbers... so I have to work through them... but I'm scared that I"m going to get another severe attack... and what if my son is up to see it... or what if I'm helpless to help and take care of him?! This really sux guys, I don't like being by myself for the night! I'm usually okay during the days (except for now) but the weekends and nights?! FOrget about it! I feel like if anything bad happens I'm going to be stuck or stranded b/c nothing is open, and no one on the street to help b/c everyone else is doing something or in bed.


I'm sorry this is so long, and I wasn't going to post it, but I had to! I was responding to everyone else's posts, and I figured everyone has such good advice.. and perhaps I could follow someone elses.





Thanks for reading if you've made it this far

[liriodendron]

That's an interesting problem. Hopefully we can get you through this
trying week. I'm new to this forum but I know you can do this. Long
before Xanax, humankind has managed to get this far. Here's an idea for
ya. What if you took a day planner type calendar and started planning
out what you're going to do each day and at what times.



Pencil in what you're going to have for meals and at what time. Then
what time is set aside for homework, housework, chores, or TV watching.
If you have open time, maybe you can find some things to do around the
house like replace light bulbs or wash the car or mow the lawn. I have
a feeling this is going to be a productive week for you and it will go
by fast. And you'll be just fine. Let us know how it goes and check in
if you need to talk to someone here.