I was less afraid than I expected!

[pianolover]

Yesterday I had an interesting experience!


I woke up feeling fine; my boyfriend came over in our shared car and we left for me to drive him to work. We were talking while we drove, and I wasn't anxious about anything, but suddenly this wave of nausea came over me. I can tell the difference between anxiety/panic nausea and "real" nausea, and this was definitely the real thing! My body got all hot and shaky and I felt like I was going to v* very soon. I asked him to talk to me to try to calm me down, but I really was already calmer than I thought I would be, feeling this ill. I didn't have any Gravol with me because I didn't expect anything to come on so quickly while I was out!


So we made it to outside his work and I pulled into a parking spot. We sat there for a few minutes and he said he could go in at 9:30 instead of 9 (ie. sit with me for awhile). But even though I am super scared of being alone when I v*, I didn't want this to get in the way of his job, because work is important. So he asked if he could pray with me, and then I felt a lot more peaceful! I had this revelation: "I'll be ok, even if no people are with me when I throw up, right?" And he said, "Right!" And I said, "It will be like an adventure, right?" And he said, "Right, because adventures are never any fun unless they're tough!" Iwas suddenly convinced that I would be ok even if I v*d, because God is always with me.


And he went inside and I drove home all by myself, feeling very nauseous the whole way but listening to music and having my window rolled down all the way just in case. I felt so brave, and he was so proud of me, and so was I!


I felt awful for a few more hours and then I had a nap. Today I don't feel nauseous but I have some intestinal cramps! I think it's because I've hardly eaten anything for a day and a half. But I feellike I had a triumph, because I was able to continue in the face of impending v*! (and as it turned out, I never v*d anyway!)


Thanks for listening!

[icicledreamz]

I feel very proud of you too..good job at keeping yourself calm, and its always nice to have somebody who cares about you assureing you..i know if that was me i would have been freaking out and probably wouldnt be able to drive. I think your going a step in the right direction...goodluck[img]smileys/smilies_39.gif[/img]

[bexcelica]

that is so awesome!!!!!!! You are so very brave, you should defintiely be very very proud of yourself

[Sun666]

I feel very proud of you too. It is really cool [img]smileys/smilies_39.gif[/img]. Great done!

[liriodendron]

way but listening to music and having my window rolled down all the way just in case.

Hey! What if there's an E-phobe behind you and you have to V*.