Welcome and you are not weird...we are all just exactly like you and it is a strange phobia. you will ownder how it took so long to find this site. I found it only a few months a go and I feel better just knowing that the lifetime of fear that I had was also known by others and so many others that could help comfort and support those bad days and sick feelings.
Glad you are here, and know that there is nothing you can say that we will think is weird...we all undestand what you are going through.
TRY to live each day like it were your last