got a BIG panic attack brewing.....HELP

[hannah33]

I don't know what to do......I'm afraid I have a big panic attack coming on, and I'm afraid of it and afraid of what will happen if it comes to a head and afraid of being afraid of being afraid, you know what happens....Anyway I have to go out of town this weekend for my cousins wedding; and i'm getting the feeling that I won't make it back. My friends and I go out for breakfast on fridays and these last few days I've kept thinking about it as "1 last meal with my friends" and this is where I get the panic attack coming on- I'm afraid to die; I don't want to- I have too much left in my life that I want to do, I want to come home and see the rest of my family again- I DON"T WANT TO DIE. Sorry if this is so depressing but it just feels so overwhelming and I can't stop it and I just can't talk myself down out of it. I'M SO SCARED!!!!! the even scarier thing is that I'm sort of calm about dying-like I've accepted it or something- I DON'T WANT TO ACCEPT IT BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DIE- I love life too much! Can anyone help me this is one of the worst fear-of dying attacks I've had so far.....
Hannah

[pianolover]

Dear Hannah,


I'm so sorry you are so panicky! Try to take ten deep breaths in a row - really slow good deep ones. Why do you feel so afraid of dying? Can you tell that it is an irrational or out of proportion fear right now, or is there some reason that you actually think it might happen? Either way, I hope you have someone who would be understanding who you can phone right now!


Do something you love, to distract you. Eat your favourite food, read your favourite book, go for a walk, go to sleep. Is there anything that always makes you feel better?


You're right - life is so worth living. But we are not in charge, and the One who is in charge has it all under control. Don't worry!


Feel better!

[tayda]

I know how you feel. I'm not afraid to die, but I'm afraid to die young. (I think this stems from the fact I lost my mother when I was 11). That is how I felt the night I went to the hospital. I hope you have gotten your attack under control, they really are quite terrifying. SO I bid you adue (spelling?) w/ you're not going to die, and you will be fine.


Go to the wedding, have fun, and you'll see your friends when you get back :C)