Seeing it Verses Doing it

[samara's on tv]

I was thinking about all the times I've actually Vomited in my life...I can remember 2 times I had a stomach virus and one time where I threw up and I don't know why. I'm sure if I wasn't phobic I would have Vomited more times but that's not my point. When I think back on the times I've actually thrown up none of them seem that bad. I mean what I remember is that it was really quick and then it was over. I didn't choke...it never came out of my nose...it really wasn't that bad. Sometimes I think that it wouldn't be so bad to throw up again. I think about doing it A LOT...more then people without Emet would think about it. I have acid reflux disease so after I eat just about anything it always partially comes up my throat and I swallow it back down but if I didn't then I would be vomiting. I think the worst part of vomiting for me is not the actual act it's self, but seeing what comes OUT of me that bothers me the most. Does anyone else feel the same way? or is it just the ACT That bothers you? I guess it's strange that I fear SEEING it after I do it MORE then doing it by itself...Am I the only one?


~Monica

[sheri-baby]

I am so terrified of nausea, I feel like I want to die.....I can't pinpoint my fear of vomiting really......why 24/7 I am worried about me or my kids getting sick.....I do agree with a lot of things you said...but for me I thinks it's the not knowing how long it will last or how violent it will be...at least you can remember how it felt....the last time I vomited, I was 5, and don't remember much except for the feeling before....like your doomed, and there's no turning back....but I would have to say I would fear myself getting sick more than seeing someone else....I think!...also, all depends on if they're contagious or not too. I'm sure most people could agree with us...I live with this horrible fear of getting the norwalk virus, after reading and hearing about how sick people get with it! Talk to you later[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]Edited by: sheri-baby

[bexcelica]

i cant pinpoint why im afraid either. i went to a psychologist who is
doing emdr with me and she said to think of all the worst experiences
with v*. i thought of them, and she asked how much anxiety i get from
them.. i dont get much thinking about it. its when im n* or someone
around me is n* or v* or something. i cannot stand the act of doing it.
and looking at it. and smelling it. etc etc i think i just hate
everythign about it

[jennyleigh1975]

I have more of a problem with doing it myself and smelling it. It doesnt bother me to see it, especially if I know that the cause of it isnt something contagious. I actually think I fear the nausea more ............ like if and when it will strike ................. I think not knowing is the worst for me, cause I wouldnt want it to strike when I was away from home.

[brandon_r_edson]

I once thought like you did samara. I remember how I thought about how it really was like to be sick. I remember telling myself "I don't really think it's that uncomfortable". But then the next time came and it was horrible. It not only hurts you physically but it also affects your mind and brain. You can pass out and it's traumatizing. I havent done it in a while, but it's best for you, me, and the rest of us just to try not to think about it.


p.s. Next time, have a glass of water with you and chug it. This way it may not hurt as bad or be as uncomfortable. You also won't be dry heeving. Just a thought.





I'm not trying to be pesimistic or anything.

[jesskali]

For me, it is the loss of control associated with *v* that bothers me the MOST. It took me a long time to figure that out. I don't like seeing it either and the last couple of times I did IT, it was either with the lights off or my eyes closed. And, for some really weird reason, I would rather do IT in the sink than the toilet or trash can.

Brandon is right about drinking liquid beforehand. It makes it much "easier", if there is such a thing! I usually drink something carbonated to try and settle my stomach if I am nauseated.

Jess

[kate1966]

I agree, I think the smell and the seeing it is the worst....i want the light out....isn't that crazy...but it's been while for me....but it was in broad daylight and then as the precise moment...i didn't even care that i was v.....b/c i KNEW i had no control.....it was kind of scary but not really.....i did not hurt....it just kept going on and on.....i was pregnant...so finally when i got to the hospital they gave me a shot and i quit....but it was like 7-10 times and i really don't remember anything much except that it was strange....like wow this is not that bad really...However...i still freak out just as bad now i am the slightest bit nauseas...like i am right now!!!!!!!!!

[aguerra29]

I think mine is all about control. Not knowing when or how it is going to happen. I haven't done it very often in my life so I don't remember what it feels like. The last time I was sick (20+ years ago) I think i was panicing beforehand, so now I associate that panicky feeling with being about the throw up. I remember this strange feeling of tingling/shaking. I got that feeling again 5 years ago. I associated it with almost throwing up, but looking back I think it was a panic attack. My dad had just gotten remarried and it was all very traumatic for me. On the other hand, the thought of somthing coming out of your body that way is scary. I have never thrown up in a toilet. Always in a sink. I don't know. I just know that I am still afraid of it. Less so than I was a year ago, but I still think about it at least once a day. WOuldn't it be nice to go through a day without thinking about it?