Bit of a pitfall :(

[angel13]

Today could have been so much fun...if it wasn't for my stupid emetophobia.


It was the most gorgeous Spring day - sunny, all the flowers out, you know...ideal. I went over to a friend's place for his 20th birthday party...just a small gathering, only 5 of us. He cooked us a BBQ lunch...and as per usual, I started worrying about the cooked meat. The rissole/burger type things were pretty well cooked, but a little pink on the inside...not wanting to be rude, I ate a bit of one, then lapsed into panic mode and couldn't make myself eat anymore of it. Arghh.


That ain't all, either. Another friend brought around a cheesecake her mother had made - I had a piece, and it was so nice. Yet I totally forgot about the fact that the younger kids in their family had all had an SV over the past week or so. When I eventually did remember this, it justincreased my anxiety tenfold.


I actually left the party early because I'd come over so panicked! Anyway...its been a good 8 or so hours, and I feel fine...just...annoyed, and dissappointed in myself for ruining a perfectly good day.

[shiva]

Don't be so disapointed. This stuff happens. The good news is that after you left, your panic went away and you were able to control how you felt. Just keep going out to stuff and keep challenging yourself no matter how uncomfortable it gets. Maybe next time just be really cautious of what you eat, or go for it and eat it even though it's pink! Afterall, everyone else is Don't be too hard on yourself. After all, you went, didn't you? There are some people on here who probably can't even leave their homes right now.