Lonely

[realtaken]

No one will probably care about this, but I have ruined my life over having this disease. I have not one friend because I fear getting ill or my kids getting ill. I am so darn tired of feeling alone. I hope someone out there can understand where I am coming from. Would love to hear from someone.


-Stephanie

[bexcelica]

hey - im sorry to hear youre sad. dont say you dont have any friends, because you have all of us on here we're all here for you wheneevr you need. someone is always on i think, ive always gotten some response. we all know how you feel and have missed out on things because of emet, so dont worry we're all in the same boat and all have eachother.





becky

[realtaken]

Becky:


I really appreciate that. It is nice (for some odd reason) to know that someone out there understands how hard it is to live through this fear. I feel like a crazy person so much of the time. I dread the winter months that are coming because I am afraid my kids will pick up a stomach virus and my life will be over! Thanks for caring enough to reply.


Stephanie

[wing]

*huggles* =] I'm here too. Sorry that you are feeling that way.

[*mandi*]

Hi Steph. I know exactly how you feel. I feel horribly alone. I have no friends either. Just me and my boyfriend. Trust me I feel like a crazy person too. I find some comfort from all these wonderful people here who go through the same thing. This phobia is very hard to deal with, and has left me very very lonely. No one seems to understand me either. If you ever want to talk im always here!

[ontariogirl]

I know how you feel. I was the same way years ago, to be exact 18 years ago. It is hard having this phobia and having no friends can make you feel twice as worse. How old are your kids?
As the years have gone by my self-esteem has grown and along with that I have made friends, I tell them honestly about this phobia and I am lucky that they have remained my friends even though at times I feel like a nut.
I feel the same about the winter months. Instead of going out skating or any outdoor activities with my son I chose to stay at home in my safe house. My son decided to play hockey one year and I had to take him to games which were out of town, when I felt overwhelmed I would call a mother whose son was on his team and make a excuse why I couldn't go and my son would go with them. At times I pushed myself to take him and in the end I was glad I did. I am glad I pushed myself because at the end of the game he would say thanks for coming Mom.
Don't be so hard on yourself. We are here and we do understand completly

[realtaken]

You guys are wonderful. Thanks so much for all your kind and uplifting words. My kids are 4, 3, and 20 months old. That is one of the reasons whyI am having such a tough time - they are so small and I know they have to and will get sick. They all had the stomach flu this past March and were v*ing for five days each, so I delt with it for 2 1/2 weeks. I did not eat and I was so extremely stressed out that I now have chronic fatigue syndrome. It is hard to function some days. I am trying to enjoy them as children, but sometimes I cannot wait for them to grow up. I am afraid they will have the same phobias I do. It is just so hard. Thanks for listening you guys.


Stephanie

[shiva]

All I can say is that the change has to come from within you. If you are sincerely sick of it, YOU have to decide to do something about it. I'm not belittling your situation, I have been right there with ya. It's just sometimes getting this sick of it is exactly what it takes to make a change.

[SimplyMe]

Hi, Stephanie, sorry this is a bit late. Anyhow, I too can understand where you are coming from. I have a few friends but I remember when I was younger and didn't do all the partying and such that they did I got "forgotten" alot. And even now I'm mostly to myself. It does suck that this phobia controls so much but like shiva said it controls what we allow it to control. I really respsct all of you who have children and have this phobia, I don't know how you do it and I hope if I ever have kids I can get thru the way you guys do. So right there you've proven how strong you are by having kids in the first place, if you can do that, you can do anything! Also a bit close to what shiva said, when i was in grade school I had a teacher I was very close to and told her the "I wanna be like you when I grow up" thing because I never felt good (nerves I know now) and so on and she told me one day you will be sick and tired of feeling sick and tired and that is when you will feel better. Hope this helps!

[ontariogirl]

You know Stephanie, my boys are 21 and 12 almost 13. When they were younger and the flu hit I was going nuts to. I made sure that I was there while they were being sick and hiding my fear. With little kids they pick up on behaviors and I didn't want my kids seeing mommy freaking out. Now that they are older they go into the bathroom and do it. My youngest will tell me he was sick and I would help me clean up or whatever, but it does get easier. My 21 year old is in college now, and I day dream of the day he gets married, will I be ok? will I have an anxiety attack? Thinking of the day of grandchildren, I want to be like my mother. When the kids are sick and say my brother and his wife need to work she will care for my nephew or his sisters, I want to be like that. But thinking into the future like that isn't right it just adds more anxiety on me.
When your kids become older it will become easier I promise!