I have a vomite phobia. and find it hard to go place's...
It haunts me everyday of my life..everywhere i go...everthing i do...
i know its not a thing that happends everyday that i see everyday...
its different to one such as a spider phobia...as im more likely to see a spider than a person being sick...
but it still affects me the same...
i have a pannic attack when i see/hear a person vomiting...i scream i cry and i run as fast as i can to get away from it...
it spoilt my childhood and school days...as we all know that little kids are usually sick...and it happend alot at my school...even in secondary school...
i got picked on and bullyed alot because of it...and that has made me weary aroung meeting new people...just how they wud react..
the last boyfriend i had...when i told him about it, when i felt comfortable enough to tell him...he laughed. he laughed at me...he made me feel so low...so ashamed of myself...and after then i couldnt feel that same way about him...i could no longet feel comfortable around him.
I dont have many friends. and the ones i did have didnt understand. Zoe a friend i have now doenst understand either...she jokes and laughs...but she doesnt know how it feels...
living in fear every day of your life..
now that im older i thought it would have gone...or got better...i have had it ever since i can remember...but its grown and got worse as i got older.
Its got to the point where i dont even like me been sick...i didnt mind it...well i didnt like it but it didnt make me have a pannic attac...but now, now it does. i start to panic when ever i begin to feel ill. which makes me feel worse...
i dont like pubs and i dont like been out and about at night time...
I have had "help" with it...but it didnt help at all. nothing seems to make it any better.