hi i am new to this website

[panik kills]

hello i am new to this forum. for the longest time (just like everyne esle) i thought i was the only one with this fear. i am so happy to know that i am not the only one.


i would get made fun of for being so scared to v. My fear has gotten to me really bad over the last 10 years. it has gotten to the point where i stopped eating because i was so afraid that if i ate then i might just v it up. i couldnt ever stop thinking about t**** u*.i would have continious panic attacks. i became depressed always would cry and start shaking if i thought i was going to v or if i heard someone say they didnt feel good. if i thought i was going to or even if i thought someine else was, then i would cry like cazy and start shaking like crazy.


when i stopped eating because of my fear. my parents finally got me help and i slowly started to get better. i was even able to be in the same room with someone if they were about to v. (when i used to not be able to). but i think it is starting to get bad again. i am really hoping it isnt getting bad again. because when it was bad everday was a nightmare for me. but since last week when i was at my friends house. some girl got really drunk and v and i started to shake ad cry, i couldnt even be in the same room with her. And then today i couldnt stop worrying if i was going to v because i felt sick and wouldnt eat eithier. then i had a panic attack tonight because i thought i might v. i started to cry and started shaking. i really hope it isnt getting back to how it used to be. i hate this fear. i really do. it never goes away. but i am glad that i know there are so many people with the same fear as me. now i know that i have people to support my fear not people who will laugh in my face and say "but why are you scared of ving. thats so weird."


i am looking forward to the support and comfrot from this forum.


but mostly i just wanted to tell you a little part of my story with my experiences with the fear and introduce myself.but now i am off to bed. thank you for reading this.


good night from panik kills


ps sorry if there are a lot of errors in my writing. it's 200 in the morning and i really didnt care much about grammer or making a lot of sense haha

[mommyof3]

Welcome I hope things are looking better for you today.


I think it's great that you did get better. I think with any battle there are going to be ups and downs. At least you know you can get to the "up!" Good for you

[*mandi*]

Hello I am also recently new. And Im going through a really horrible time right now. I know how you feel. I cant even be in the same room with someone that doesnt feel good. I start to panic really bad...and then i start to feel sick. And its all I can think about. I also start shaking really bad and cry and cry. Its a horrible thing to deal with.


Im glad I found this site b.c there are a lot of people here that feel the same way, and you'll get some comfort from it.


I havent really ate much in the past month b.c this fear is rally hitting me hard lately. I dont know what set it off this time. I absolutely F*ing hate it! I wish I could get my appatite back and eat so I dont get all skinny and even more sick Im here if you ever want to talk

[bexcelica]

welcome to both of you...

[ontariogirl]

Welcome