I feel so panicky

[tearfulangel]

It's my brothers birthday tommorow so he's gone out drinkingwith all his friends. He went out at 5.30pm and it's now nearly 11.30pm.


He might not throw up tonight... I don't know. Not knowing is the problem. Lying with my fingers in my ears for hours is uncomfortable. I can sleep in my mums bed where I feel safer and is far away from his room but not far enough. It's wierd because I feel safer at dawn when it starts to get light. [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]


Tonight is going to be bad and I probably won't get much sleep. I'm in work on Monday too. Sorry this is all wierd but I feel really panicky about my brother getting drunk. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]

[mommyof3]

I remember being in high school visiting my sister atcollge and being angry with her because she got drunk and told me "I don't think I will v*"--I was staying in her dorm room with her! I hardly slept that night. I totally feel for you. But, as time has gone by, the thing that gets me through something like this is knowing that they are not contagious.Your brother'sonly v* because he drank too much. You will not.


How old is he? Does your mother get angry with him if he comes home drunk/sick? It seems a little inconsiderate of the other people in your home.

[crystalmom]

I always feel better at dawn too! It's like the world has turned on again, and you know you'll be ok.


Don't worry about your brother. Chances are, if he is going to v*, he'll do it while he's out, and if he is that drunk, he might not come home at all!!!


Good luck, and try to get some rest.


Crystal

[tearfulangel]

Thanks! He didn't come home! I feel stupid now. [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img]


He's 24 now but he does get a row especially the time he v* out of his bedroom window into the back garden all over the kitchen window. [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]


I'm not scared of catching anything, it's just so disgusting and the noise is awful.

[tcsarah]

Does your brother know about your emet? If not would it help to explain to him just how much it disturbs you when he v*s from being drunk? Or maybe you think he would wind you up about it if he knew?


I'm like you I hate to see or hear itand it's not that I'm afraid of catching anything just that it's so horrible. I would have been so disturbed seeing his v* on the window [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]


Hey, at twenty four maybe it'll not be long before he gets his own place then you don't have to worry about it anymore [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[tearfulangel]

No one knows about my emet, not even my mum and she's a nurse.


I doubt that he'd care to be honest. He's supposed to be going travelling next year sometime so hopefully there'll be some respite.


It was minging! My mum saw it first and made him get up and clean it up. [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]She was furious because the Estate Agent was coming that day to value the house!

[tcsarah]

Oh no! Imagine the estate agent coming and seeing that!


Is there a particular reason you haven't confided in anyone close about your emet? I ask because I kept my problems a secret until I was in my early twenties and it really did make me feel worse bottling them all up. As I started telling people about my phobias (I have suffered with agoraphobia aswell) I felt a whole weight had been lifted, and could deal with things that bit better.

[tearfulangel]

I suppose I just feel strange about it.


I don't see why my family should change their lives because of my phobia. [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]

[tcsarah]

They wouldn't have to change their lives, they would hopefullyjust be that bit more thoughtful about things where v* was concerned.


I know if someone close had a problem, especially if I had children and it was one of them, I would want to know about it so I could give them support in any way I could. I'm sure your mum, being a nurse, would be understanding.


I know what you mean though, when you say you feel strange about it, I used to feel exactly the same way. I just thought I'd let you know things aren't as bad as you imagine they will be when the secret is out! There will always be people out there who are ready to belittle others' weaknesses and problems, but they aren't worth worrying about. On the whole people are very sympathetic, and I have even come across people over the years who turn out to have similar reactions towards v* as myself - one to the extent of being an emetophobe!