OT: I need a little help...

[samara's on tv]

Okay here's the problem...and no one laugh at me either. I'm a big fan of ER (you know the TV show) anyway it sort of depresses me a little everytime I watch it. Let me explain.


About a year ago I really got into the show...okay maybe a little more then a year. I've been watching it for 2 or 3 seasons. I used to Roleplay it with a friend of mine named Mare. We would roleplay characters from the show and made up characters...my Character was Amber McKay. She's perfect everything I could ever want/hope to be.


I look at myself, I'm 21 (Well almost, 6 days from this post) I'm not in school and I don't work. I basically live off the money that my dad gives me. (Sad I know but I can tell you that I'm not spoiled...I don't have a car or a fancy apartment, I don't have cable TV or a cell phone...I'm NOT spoiled) Anyway this Amber McKay character I made up is wonderful! She's 36, has a perfect body, can speak 3 different languages and is rich.


I guess what I'm getting at is the fact that I'm depressed. Depressed that all the stuff I put so much time and energy into can never happen. As much as I want it to be true, ER is just a show. Kerry Weaver is just a character, and Amber McKay doesn't exsist. As much as I WANT to be Amber, it ain't going to happen.


Now I know people would say, "Then Stop watching the damn TV show!" and I would if I could but I can't. Although the show depresses me it also makes me happy. And for an hour once a week I can escape into the show and not worry about anything else.


I guess what I'm trying to ask/say here is does anyone else have a vivid fantasy life? Have or HAD at one point? Should I stop watching the show if it has this kind of effect on me? I mean I write Fan Fics and I go to the message boards...but all of it makes me feel kind of empty...and at the same time happy. Is there anyway to escape a vivid fantasy life? I mean right now ER is all that I have...ER and Law and Order SVU.


I just look at my life and realize how sad it is that I rely on TV shows and that makes me sad. Does anyone have any advice for me? Anything at all! I know this post is sort of silly...but you promised not to laugh *Points at the top of the post* I'm just looking for advice/encouragement...anything anyone has to say about this odd predicament.


Thanks


~Monica

[tcsarah]

I have always been a dreamer - I can daydream for England me. I think it's good to have fantasies, to escape to something, be someone, do something, whatever, that captures your imagination and makes you happy. I know it can hurt coming back to reality and thinking, if only life were really like that, but hey, you never know one day some of those dreams might come true.


You are very young Monica, and I know it may not feel like it where you are at right now in your life, but whose to say you won't be just like your dream character Amber Mckay when you are in your late thirties? I've never felt so happy or confident since I hit my thirties, I never imagined I could feel good about myself. I am like a different person to what I used to be when I was your age.


I don't think you should stop watching your favourite tv show either, as you say, when that is on you are totally absorbed in it and not thinking about all your usual worries. I think tv is an excellent form of escapism - I tend to get totally absorbed in a good film, a few soap operas or drama series, my current favourite is Lost - I love that show.


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[jesskali]

I'm not sure if I have any advice to give you, but I think having a fantasy world can be a good thing. CSI Las Vegas is my favorite show and like you said, I can watch it for an hour and not think about anything else. I have a very busy, active life, but that doesn't keep me from fantasizing about the characters on the show. I don't necessarily fantasize about BEING one of the characters, I think more about BEING WITH some of the male characters on the show! Call me crazy, but I think Gil Grisham is sexy!

Jess

[samara's on tv]

Thanks you guys...you really helped me feel better. And I guess it's true when I'm 36 I could know 2 more languages and be a doctor. I want to be a doctor but this whole Emetophobia thing is holding me back.


~Monica