I’m so frustrated! :(

[wintergreen22]

I hate eing an emet. I want to be normal again (if there was ever a time when I was normal). Its getting worse and I'm loosing weigh because of this and nothing seems safe enough to eat and I keep on embarrasing my self because of this. I'm so frustrated. At one point I could handle being an emet but it sucks so severly right now. I'm jelouse of my friends that can eat whatever they want, whenever they want. They can go out whenever they feel like it and not have to worry as much as I do. I can't wait for this to be over so I can move on with my life. I'm frustrating my friends, my family, and this one guy that I like sooo much (he is sooo cute and has an awesome personality). I completely embarrassed myself in front of him the other day cause we woke up and everything was fine and then all of a sudden I had this panic attack and I started to cry and whine and freak out and he was trying to help me but it was making it worse. At the time I wasn't embarrassed, but when I look back at yesterday I'm like "SHOOT! I was such a weirdo!" and I haven't even gotten a chance to apologize and tel him I'm sorry for flipping out on him! Ugh! I hate being an emet so much! I want it to be gone soo bad!


Sorry, I'm just frustrated and miserable and I needed to get it off of my chest.[img]smileys/smilies_29.gif[/img]

[yenn]

Hey, you didn't choose emet so don't beat yourself up about it. If this guy is worth anything at all he won't have a problem with you having a panic attack. And you're not a weirdo for having one. Don't be jealous of your friends, yes I know it's difficult when you can only eat certain foods, but think f how much healthier you probably are - if like most emets you don't eat meat you are cutting your risk of heart disease and such things so try not to beat yourself up so bad. COnsider the positives to it.

[wintergreen22]

I don't feel like I'm healthy right now. I like salads but they freak me out cause I'm afraid that there will be bacteria on them that I didn't wash off properly. But thanks for your kind words. It makes me feel a bit better.

[yenn]

your stomach is resistant to a lot more than you'd think. I know it can be very hard to rationalise and think that but it's true. Most of the bacteria you could possibly leave behind on salad couldn't make you ill because it is not potent enough to survive your stomach acid. I ate unwashed salad a few weeks ago which i also found a bug in, and was fine.

[wintergreen22]

oo... I didn't know that. thanks[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]