I'm really putting myself out there this week, trying to conquer as many things at least once before I go on one of my super fear phases again. Tonight I am going to a nightclub. I haven't been clubbing in a long time, but my boyfriend's band is playing and since I haven't been to see them in ages, a group of my friends are coming with me to see them. I'm really nervous, I'm shaking in fact, and my stomach has been crampy and tense all day. I always get like this when I have to go clubbing and normally I cry off at the last moment but this means such a lot to him that I have to go. And it will mean a lot to me too, to prove that I can do it.
So, I'm going to go, his band are playing for a half hour, and I'm going to get there about fifteen mins before they go on so I can get the panic out of the way as soon as possible. Hopefully getting rid of the panic will lead into a calm night where I can relax and enjoy myself. Fingers crossed!
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