Confused

[small_is_specia]

Heya,

Im megan, joined this site a while ago. Haven't been here for a while
cos everything got better. I had better things to think about. Don't
get me wrong it was always there but it was better. But now I'm lost
again. I've found I'm avoiding going out and don't want to go into
school just incase.

I read someones post today, and it summed up everything I'm feeling. If
I knew I wasn't going to be ill it would be fine, even if someone was
to say, yes you eill be ill. But it's the not knowing. I hate not
knowing when it could happen. Im just...fed up and its getting me down.


What made it worse is my best friend. Bless her she is a star, only
person I talk to about this but I no longer feel I cnn. She recently
confessed to me that the other day she felt ill and v* (can't type it
any more, used to be able to) and after that once she was fine. But now
when she feels down she does it as a comfort. All I could say was go to
the doctors. I feel so bad, I just went offline and cried. Wished I
could be her, so uneffected, and I want to be able to help but i can't.
Dont think I'll ever understand someone that chooses to do that.

Just thought Id write here in hope that someone would help...support
me? I don't know, I just feel so lost and alone right now. xxx

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[osh_ish]

heya,


the post above is mine. Had problems on that account though...changed my email but didnt get a confirmation thingy whatever [img]smileys/smilies_27.gif[/img]


so anyone that does message me...do it to this new account? thanks [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[Jenneh]

hello Megan.


i know you!! lol hope you remember me... i remembered the distinctive "osh_ish" phrase you use


((if you do need a hand, it's LP_Freak from MSN lol))


i'm sorry to hear thing's have got quite bad again...are you having th summer holiday atm? are u returning back to school? cause i remember when i used to have the 6 weeks off and had to rturn to school my emet wud be worse just before. it's the usual worries catching up with me, i guess.


as for your best friend, i cant quite think why throwing up comforts her, when she's down? unless it's to get rid of food or something? i dont know about that one... but don't feel bad for not being able to talk about it. she should understand as she knows about ur emet. (Was she the one that i spoke to? btw?)


just PM me on MSN if u need to talk.


Jen xxxx

[crazy_me_84]

Hi Megan, I can relate to how you're feeling. You think things are improving and a setback makes you feel so much worse and helpless? I too, have avoided going out and seeing people- the fear of not knowing if 'it' is going to happen and when, terrifies me- the complete lack of control.


I understand that you feel you want to help, or should be able to help your friend but its a problem that you're very uncomfortable with so its not your fault. I've been in the same situation- I felt like such a failure to nothelp someone when they were ill.


don't feel so alone, the forums are here to support and advise and shows that there are loads of people out there just like us!


xxx

[angel13]

Megan, I know just how you feel, mate! You're so right - it IS the not knowing that's frightening, isn't it? I wish i could go through life and not be affected, either.


If you ever fancy a chat, I'm at [email protected]. Don't feel alone, like crazy_me said, thats what the forums are here for. If you're ever having a bad day, feel free to come and talk about it. The people I've met here are the nicest people I've ever met online (cue: awwwww!), and that's saying something, I've only been here a week or so! lol.


I'm sure you can get back on top again, and put emet back in its place ^_^