I just came across this website....
I never knew that other people had this fear...I always knew that
people didnt like throwing up..i mean its gross...but i never knew this
had a name.
It is so relieving to know that there are people living with this just like me...
Now that I know it has a name--I feel like I can overcome it--does that make sense?
I remember the first time I ever saw someone puke, I was 3 in preschool..
the kid's name was Joseph and it was a lunch time and he puked up apple
cobbler allover the teacher Tona, and she was wearing an aqua colored
sweat suit and had to go home and change...some of it got on the table
we were eating at...
i didnt eat anything that included baked apples until my teens...and
this is why--but i never admitted that to anyone until now...
And i remember every single time I have ever seen somebody throw up ever since...
and i have only thrown up 7 times in my life. Twice of which were from
alcohol...but i havent thrown up from illness since i was in elementry
school w/ the exception of one time in Mexico...(dont let the water
even touch your lips) when i was 17...
I am 22 now and I work in New York..but live in Queens..
this forces me to use public transportation...EVERY DAY.
which involves being enclosed in a small space with strangers...
yesterday i had a run in with my worst fear---
being in a small space where someone throws up in my presence.
This is the 2nd time it has happened in the 2 yrs i have lived here...
But I am so shaken right now and having a hard time getting over
the paranoia now that it might happen again..on the train today (which
i was a ball of anxiety about) I was chatting with a friend..and behind
us i heard a splattering noise that sounded like throwing up and i
jumped up and ran to the other side of the car FREAKING OUT
obviously..she didnt know what the hell was going on..then she pieced
it together and it turns out some guy had just spilled his seltzer
water..at this point i started to cry (which is something i virtually
NEVER EVER do) but i had no control, myhands were shaking..and i was
like--what the f*** is wrong with me?
How can I learn to deal with this?
If I dont get past it...I cannot function normally...and i will always
be terrified to have kids (morning sickeness....them throwing up etc.)
It feels so good to know that I am not alone in this...
Any words of wisdom?