My anxiety is back, full strenght and strikes whenever I expect and all the time.
The reason is that my 2 sisters came down with a tummybug and my parents are in australia for 5 weeks so I feel so alone.
First my older sister woke me up in the middle of the night by pjuking loudly. I couldnīt sleep and I got so anxious I almost fainted. I had to listen to her pjuke sounds. I have been a wreck all week. 2 days later my twin sis got sick. Oh god, I suffer and I have been counting the daysuntil I get sick. But It has been 4 days now so I think I will be ok. But my brain has been overloaded with fear and Im more screwed up now emetwise. I feel like s***. I donīt want to be or live in this house cos everything makes me feel nausious and anxious and reminds me of tummybugs. Oh my god, I want to die.
I did a ipacec experiment 4 weeks ago and pjuked and felt ok with it but now....I dont know. I reacted so strong, more than I thought I would. Major setback.
love