Christ guys I hate this phobia so much. Sometimes I really feel like it is ruining my life and seriously preventing me from doing what I really want in life. Why do we let this rule us? Are we weak? God I am so frustrated. Sorry guys but I experienced v in the workplace yesterday and I am so scared to go back there on Monday morning in case it is still sitting there looking at me. Basically I drove out of the car park yesterday and there wasa big pile of it at the entrance so it could have been done by a member of staff. I can't get it out of my head and don't know how I will get to work on Monday for the worry that it will still be there especially as we aren't expecting any rain. I won't be able to go out for lunch on Monday and in fact I won't be able to go out for days until I know it has totally gone because I would have to walk right past it to get down to the shops. Christ guys I am freaking out. I am trying not to let it rule me and make me feel so crap but hey I am an emet, that is what we do. I have to say that this is the first time I have encountered v in this particular workplace and I just didn't expect it and felt disappointed when I saw it and really felt like my weekend was going to be ruined because of it. I am meant to be going to Ikea this afternoon with my BF but I feel scared to go out in case I see more v because I always find that once I see it it then seems to be everywhere but nobody else I am with ever sees it or notices it. I guess we do because we are looking for it. I have to find an end to this phobia because it is ruining my life. I want to be a paramedic for christ sake and what hope do I have? Sorry guys I am ranting a bit now and I know you are all too aware of how this damn emet makes us feel.
Thanks for listening and any tips for coping with Monday morning would be appreciated.