Hi Naomi, welcome to the site! you aren't an awful mother, you're deathly afraid of v. Check out some of sage's stuff under the treatment thread, there's lots of good info on finding a therapist and facts about emet as well as exposure and treatment options (don't worry there aren't any scary pics on the threads). Also I believe there is info about how sv (stomach viruses) are caught and prevented.
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